13th June 1996, a cry of joy was heard as the doctor announced "she's beautiful! congratulations, you've got yourself a baby girl."
I spent 1182 lonely nights waiting for you to be born into this world.
You might not remember, but we were lovers from faraway.
Not of this world, not of this universe.
We were once angels who soared through the heavens and looked down upon this world.
Have you really forgotten who I am?
An angel is forbidden to fall in love, that is an absolute rule in heaven.
We tried to hide it, but the cruse of falling in love started to show.
Our halos started to fade and our wings shed its feathers.
We became more human than angelic.
As punishment, I was sent to Earth first.
Completely void of my memories, but they didn't know.
I used the last of my powers to seal off my love for you and our memories.
I couldn't bear to let them erase it.
Thus I fell from the heavens and was born into this world as a boy.
And I began waiting for you, crying without a reason.
My parents thought I was sick, but it is not a physical illness.
But a pain in my heart.
My only friend is a pure white wolf-dog who kept me warm at night as I gazed upon the nightsky waiting for you.
On that blessed leap year, I saw a bright meteor falling from the sky.
My heart leaped, my lips curled into a smile.
After 3 painful years, I finally smiled.
Alas! Heaven found out that I've not forgotten about you.
For sending us to Earth was a test of Fate.
They sent Michael the Archangel, my brother to seal off my memories.
Memories of heaven, of hope and of you.
I could've swore that I saw Michael shed a tear when he sealed me.
Thus began my life as a mortal.
Yet, I often wondered why the paintings in the old cathedrals looked so familiar.
An old bishop once commented that I looked like one of the angels in the paintings on the dome.
I never knew why I often longed to fly.
Perhaps the birds could see my invisible wings, for they always sang their morning songs outside my window, asking me to join them in their flight that day.
Years passed, I fell in love a few times.
But I couldn't bring myself to touch, to hold and to kiss another girl.
Everytime a girl wishes to be kissed my heart would writhe in pain and I would have to refuse it.
I may not remember you, but it seems that this broken heart of mine does.
Thus I remained pure, untouched for a reason unknown to myself.
My lips untouched, my body untainted and my heart in pieces missing someone I know not about.
Once every leap year, I would see a girl so beautiful that it surpasses the beauty of mortals.
A girl not of this world, not of this place and not of this era.
A girl I know not about, yet feel so familiar.
A girl who'd just hold me tightly and not say a word.
A girl whom I could kiss without my heart writhing in pain.
Somehow I've known this girl for a very long time.
Before the creation of this world.
Before the first man met the first woman.
Before the first rain fell upon this world.
Before time existed.
In my dreams, time seemed to pass so fast.
And you always seem so sad when you're about to leave me.
I asked you for your name, but you wouldn't say a word.
You couldn't speak it seems.
You'd leave me crying out to you and waking up to tears soaking my pillow and I'd cry without a reason.
Because it hurts my heart so much just to be separated from you, even if its a dream.
5th February 2010- The Leo club was tasked with organizing UN Day for our school.
Being part of the Organizing Committee for this project I was given so much work to do.
Stupid Ong Jun Shern "MONK"..
And that pearl little was acting as if the project was hers and just brushed me aside from my work after taking my videos and telling me I'm of no use.
Such a horrible day, I was so pissed.
And to top it off, I was also part of the Disciplinary Committee and we had to make sure the classes clean up their stalls.
It was going around telling the stalls and warning dirty stalls when this kid from your class came running towards me shouting "if you buy one of these(cupcakes) then she'll give you a kiss!"
I looked up and saw someone I knew from long long ago.
Someone I loved, I cherished and I died for.
She saw me walking towards her stall and agreeing to buy if she gave me a kiss and blushed.
She might've looked different from her days as an angel.
But I could see her wings, an elegant pair of wings that were invisible to the mortals around us.
I remembered everything just by seeing those pair of wings.
Her wings were special and unique even in heaven, tinted with a light pink which refracted light in an almost enchanting way.
I looked at her and smiled, she smiled back.
But it wasn't the smile she used to give me.
To be continued..
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