Still Waiting, Its Just You

It doesn't matter how beautiful other girls are,
you're the one I love.
So stop talking about how beautiful other girls are,
cause I don't care about them.
She may be the most beautiful girl in this world,
but you are the most beautiful girl in my world.
This world means nothing to me,
you are my everything.
Even if you deny my love,
push me aside,
and treat me as just a friend.
I'll always be waiting for you,
never to give up on you.
You tell me that you see me as nothing more than a best buddy,
guess I'll just have to remain as your buddy until I find a way to win your heart.
Though its kinda unfair that you have two hearts,
both mine and yours while I have none.
I pray that someday, we'll have the last waltz together and share our first kiss when I can finally hold you and call you mine.

That's All I'm Asking For

I'm not asking for the most beautiful woman in the world.
You ARE the most beautiful girl in my world.
Not demanding for an hourglass figure.
Never seeked a woman who everyman would turn their heads and say gorgeous.
All I'm asking for is a girl who I love, and love me in return.
I don't know the art of making love, though my heart is aching with love for you.
So please teach me the ways to love you, that you will never want to be loved by another man.


P.S. I love you princess

Not Sure How Much Longer I Can Hold It In

My dear heart's desire,

You hurt me and broken my heart.

Left me with the sound of glass shattering.

I put on a strong front and tell you I'm okay.

You are the sweetest girl I've ever met, and it is an honour courting you.

A gentleman should never trouble a lady and cause her to worry about him.

Thus I keep my principles and not let you worry.

Its hard, pretending that I'm alright when I'm actually dying for your love.

Hearing your voice every night was a dream come true.

Your laughter is like the sound of bells ringing gently, its so enchanting.

Seeing you smile, my knees go weak and I can no longer stand straight.

When you cry, my heart shatters and my soul becomes as heavy as lead.

Then when you finally smile through your tears, the pieces of my heart melt to form a smiley face.

Dear love,

You know me, I was there before Time.

How could Fate be so cruel?

Has she lost her heart too?

Is it decided that we would all be heartless?

Destiny hides in the shadows, I see him no more.

All I have are the shards of my broken heart.

I hold on to them tightly though they cut my hand and I bleed.

Thats all I have, all thats left of me and my memories of her.

Crying Because You Don't Know Me

Arella, you don't know me.
You don't know me at all.
I don't blame you, they took away your heart.
Your locked up heart must be crying.
The current you have got no romantic feelings whatsoever towards me at all.
I've done my best, I've exhausted my fragile heart which I managed to protect all this while.
I've kept it safe for you.
But she doesn't want it.
I look at her with such longing eyes and she looks away, doesn't even look me in the eye.
I'm not worth her affections, I take up no place in her heart.
To her, everything else matters more than I do.
But its alright, I'll carry on with life while watching over your back.
Like how you used to watch over me, protect me and sacrificed yourself for me.
You were always the older and more matured one.
Even now, when the mortal me is supposed to be older than the mortal you.
I still cling on to you like in the old days.
You unconsciously know me, but your mind refuses to listen.
I'll always protect you even if you won't love me back.
Until the day when I finally die of grief when you are called someone else's wife.
As for now, me and my heart will continue to love you, watch over you and keep you company whenever you need us.

Midnight Feelings of A Heartbroken Boy

Sometimes I wanna hate myself and forget about her
cause she's not even my girl.
But then when I hear her voice
my entire heart melts
my resolution to not love her crumbles
and I'm head over heels bout her again.
She's the one my heart desires and the one my eyes seek.
I love her with all my soul's worth, my heart aches so much that I cry in the middle of the night when I wake up and realize that holding her was all just a dream.

Vanity of vanities

Waking up next to you is not a dream, its a longing I'll never receive.
To hold your hand and take a stroll along the beach is like a rainbow, you can see it but you'll never reach it.
Watching a movie with you under a blanket in a cold dark room, huddling together is something only imagination can present me.
But loving you, is like reading a story book with you as the princess but I am not the prince.
This is no longer my fairytale, never was, never will.

What I Feel

It hurts to love you.
Everytime I think of you, my hearts aches cause you're not mine.
When I breathe, my chest feels heavy because I miss you so much.
I'm dying cause this delicate heart of mine is not loved in return.
My heart has started to crumble, my soul dissipating into thin air.
Even so, I choose to love you than to not love anyone at all.

Breathing Gets Harder

Being in love is like balancing between two worlds.
A mermaid trying to stay afloat between air and water.
Except that this mermaid can't breathe underwater.
If you stay too long in the air, you'll dry up and die.
If you stay underwater for too long, you'll run out of air and drown.
You fight to stay afloat.
To keep this relationship going.
Its a ship.
A heavy one.
One with loads of responsibilities.
You need to keep the one you love happy all the time without putting too much pressure on them.
To pamper the love of your life without suffocating them in your love.
Its hard, you never know what to do.
You won't ever know what's right.
To love without hurting.
If you let her wander off too far, she might never come back.
If you always stay by her side, she'll feel chained to you.
Do you love me? Is what they always ask you.
You can say yes a thousand times without any hesitation.
But when you look at her in the eyes and she looks away.
It feels like a piece of your heart was torn and thrown away.
It hurts, but you continue to love her.
Because you know she's the one.
You can't eat, you can't sleep, you can't do anything without thinking about her.
You're addicted to her.
Her voice is the drug you'll never get enough of.
Her face is the honey this bee will never get tired of.
Her touch is the feeling of being in Paradise.
Does she feel the same?
I don't know.
Could you tell me?

How a boy's mind and heart works

A boy trusts his girl with all his heart.
He will give her his all even if he doesn't have much to give.
Given a choice between wealth, power and the girl he loves.
A boy doesn't even think twice to say he'd choose the girl he loves over all that.

A boys mind is like an F1 car, it goes round and round and doesn't stop not even to change his tyres.
He never gets bored of thinking about the girl he loves.
Never to find her boring, never to find her annoying.
He'll never get enough of her, he's addicted to her like a drug.

When he's with her, he's so happy that even morphine is a word too gentle to describe what he feels about her company.
But he doesn't know that sometimes, he's hurt the one he loves.
He gives his all into keeping her happy, not knowing he's hurt her in the process.
Does she know that she's the world to him?
Perhaps she'll never realize just how fragile his heart is.
That every word she says, he keeps it in his heart.
Every little thing that happens, he treasures it deep inside his heart.

A boy is like an oversized teddy bear.
He'll let the girl he loves kick him, pinch him, hug him and squeeze him.
Even biting him.
Just don't throw him away.

The Meaning of Love to a stupid boy

2nd January 2011
One melancholic afternoon, 2:04 pm
A stupid boy is selfish and does not think of other's feelings.
He only does what he deems best, and says what comes to mind.
Giving his all to doing what he enjoys and trying his best to please the one he loves.
He's stupid, he's dense, he's a jerk.
He doesn't know that it'll hurt her.
He never realized that she doesn't like it.
He didn't notice how angry she is.
He will never understand that no matter how much her does, it doesn't matter.
Even if he does understand a little.
Even if he cries.
She won't hear him.
She wouldn't comfort him.
Cause she doesn't love him.
So she'll never appreciate it.
She'll never return these dumb feelings.
His selfish love will never be reciprocated.
He'll disappear along with the desert sands.
Never to find that desert rose.