They say love can't kill a person.
Romance is but a fool's passion.
They won't believe you if you tell them your chest feels heavy,
Your heart hurts as though it's about to break in two.
They laugh at you when you tell them,
I can't breath, I can't sleep, I can't do anything without thinking about her.
They don't know what you're feeling because they're not in love,
Only you know what it's like to love someone so much it's no longer funny.
They'll stop laughing once you're dead,
Cause it hurts so much your heart refuses to beat any longer, your breath gives way and your spirit leaves this body
To a place far far better than this, to peace far far tranquil than now.
Doctors call it Broken Heart Syndrome.
They didn't know, they didn't believe, but truth is..
Love kills.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Priest
Though the world be unfair, cruel, unfeeling and heartless.
You my Lord God,
Thou art fair, kind, passionate and merciful.
Tears upon tears have I cried many a times,
by Thine own hand, Thou wiped my weeping face.
Burrowed my face upon Thine chest.
Softly, gently assured me.
Over and over again though I be as useless as uselessness can be.
I swear today, by Thy gracious heart.
My God I shall by Thine strength commit my all into serving Thee.
Let me not hesitate in giving my everything into loving Thee.
Promise me, O my LORD.
Leave me not even for a moment so brief.
Let every star in the sky be my witness,
every life that breathes.
With every ounce of love, hope and courage within my heart, my soul and my spirit.
I pledge my allegiance, that even the slightest betrayal would mean my fall.
I pledge my love, that I shant ever love Thee a mite lesser.
I pledge my strength, that it may be spent for a higher cause such as Thee.
I pledge my soul, that it may not be corrupted by this deteriorating world.
I pledge my spirit, that it may be safely in Thine hands on the day I die.
I pledge of my entirety to Thee, that lest on mine deathbed I regret not offering mine all to Thee.
With this I pray that Thee watch over my every step,
be firm with me for I am a child.
Be kind with Thine punishments,
for I am as frail as a twig.
Let Thine constitutions never leave me and Thy love abide with me,
For now and always.
You my Lord God,
Thou art fair, kind, passionate and merciful.
Tears upon tears have I cried many a times,
by Thine own hand, Thou wiped my weeping face.
Burrowed my face upon Thine chest.
Softly, gently assured me.
Over and over again though I be as useless as uselessness can be.
I swear today, by Thy gracious heart.
My God I shall by Thine strength commit my all into serving Thee.
Let me not hesitate in giving my everything into loving Thee.
Promise me, O my LORD.
Leave me not even for a moment so brief.
Let every star in the sky be my witness,
every life that breathes.
With every ounce of love, hope and courage within my heart, my soul and my spirit.
I pledge my allegiance, that even the slightest betrayal would mean my fall.
I pledge my love, that I shant ever love Thee a mite lesser.
I pledge my strength, that it may be spent for a higher cause such as Thee.
I pledge my soul, that it may not be corrupted by this deteriorating world.
I pledge my spirit, that it may be safely in Thine hands on the day I die.
I pledge of my entirety to Thee, that lest on mine deathbed I regret not offering mine all to Thee.
With this I pray that Thee watch over my every step,
be firm with me for I am a child.
Be kind with Thine punishments,
for I am as frail as a twig.
Let Thine constitutions never leave me and Thy love abide with me,
For now and always.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Snowy Night In Moscow and I Miss You
Shhh.. Everyone's asleep now.
Richard and Key in the left corner of the room and Vasan and Yuen Xing squeezed into his small bed above mine in the right corner of the room..
I envy them, such a merry couple.
They quarrel, argue, laugh, cuddle, cook, eat and even brush teeth together =)
They'll always have each other no matter how cold winter gets.
Their love will keep them warm.
In the silence of the night, I only have my anatomy book with me and nothing else.
I have 206 bones to memorize, in Latin and English yet I'm here because I miss you.
With no other way to contact you except to keep sending messages to your phone which I'm not even sure will reach or whether you'll read them, I decided that I'll just blog about it instead.
Not sure if you even know of the existence of this blog.
Nobody follows it anyways, just the ramblings of a hopeless romantic.
I made it because of you and for you a few days before SPM.
Guess what, its a one-year anniversary for this blog.
I miss you princess and its not even funny when I say I really do miss you till the breaking point of my heart.
Its been 286 days since the last time you called me to say we shouldn't talk anymore.
For whatever reason you may have, I'll still stand by my decision to continue loving you.
To wait on you, to hope with every ounce of my heart and to pray with every bit of my soul that one day you'll talk to me again and on that day..
I'll get to hear your laughter again.
Love is a crazy thing, yet I'm a crazy boy who's crazily in love with the perfectly lovable you which is crazily impossible for someone like me to ever win.
With all my heart,
Joshua.
Richard and Key in the left corner of the room and Vasan and Yuen Xing squeezed into his small bed above mine in the right corner of the room..
I envy them, such a merry couple.
They quarrel, argue, laugh, cuddle, cook, eat and even brush teeth together =)
They'll always have each other no matter how cold winter gets.
Their love will keep them warm.
In the silence of the night, I only have my anatomy book with me and nothing else.
I have 206 bones to memorize, in Latin and English yet I'm here because I miss you.
With no other way to contact you except to keep sending messages to your phone which I'm not even sure will reach or whether you'll read them, I decided that I'll just blog about it instead.
Not sure if you even know of the existence of this blog.
Nobody follows it anyways, just the ramblings of a hopeless romantic.
I made it because of you and for you a few days before SPM.
Guess what, its a one-year anniversary for this blog.
I miss you princess and its not even funny when I say I really do miss you till the breaking point of my heart.
Its been 286 days since the last time you called me to say we shouldn't talk anymore.
For whatever reason you may have, I'll still stand by my decision to continue loving you.
To wait on you, to hope with every ounce of my heart and to pray with every bit of my soul that one day you'll talk to me again and on that day..
I'll get to hear your laughter again.
Love is a crazy thing, yet I'm a crazy boy who's crazily in love with the perfectly lovable you which is crazily impossible for someone like me to ever win.
With all my heart,
Joshua.
Monday, May 30, 2011
Let me live on in your heart, always and forever
Let me live on in your heart.
Don't throw me out.
As if I was an old book, that you once read and carried with wherever you went and held tightly until I was all worn out.
Don't forget about me,
like the wishing star that enchanted you when you were young and how you wished you could see it again for many nights until it was washed away from the sands of your memory.
Let me live on in your heart.
Don't leave me by the roadside, to be picked up by someone random or to be thrown away.
Like the first teddy bear you received and loved to cuddle with, until you got older and received something else which took my place in your heart.
Give me some strength, to carry on each and everyday without you by my side.
Don't leave me alone.
I won't be able to carry on, being alone in the corner of the room.
Don't ignore me, I'm a delicate creature.
I might just stop breathing if you won't answer me and pamper me for a bit every once in a while.
Please, don't kill me.
Let me live on in your heart.
I rather die and live within your heart, than to be forgotten by you.
I love you and I know that's true.
So please, don't leave me alone and love me tender.
Don't throw me out.
As if I was an old book, that you once read and carried with wherever you went and held tightly until I was all worn out.
Don't forget about me,
like the wishing star that enchanted you when you were young and how you wished you could see it again for many nights until it was washed away from the sands of your memory.
Let me live on in your heart.
Don't leave me by the roadside, to be picked up by someone random or to be thrown away.
Like the first teddy bear you received and loved to cuddle with, until you got older and received something else which took my place in your heart.
Give me some strength, to carry on each and everyday without you by my side.
Don't leave me alone.
I won't be able to carry on, being alone in the corner of the room.
Don't ignore me, I'm a delicate creature.
I might just stop breathing if you won't answer me and pamper me for a bit every once in a while.
Please, don't kill me.
Let me live on in your heart.
I rather die and live within your heart, than to be forgotten by you.
I love you and I know that's true.
So please, don't leave me alone and love me tender.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
99 Days Without You
dearest princess, it was been ninety-nine days since I last heard your cheerful voice resonate through the phone..
one week before Valentine's and an everlasting sadness for me.
tonight, I reconfirm my love for you,
I won't ever give up on you.
I have vowed to be your knight and love you I will.
No matter how long it takes, or what you demand.
I will go through it all just for you.
Know that you are not just any other girl, because you are special to me.
I don't care how many other pretty girls are in this world.
You are the most beautiful one to me.
I will never avert my attention from you, even just for a while.
You're all that I want, all that I need.
I stay up thinking of you everynight, knowing that you won't pick up the phone.
Until the day you finally get married to another and form a covenant with him and watch as I slowly die.
I will love you.
Don't tell me you're too young, or we'll be too far apart.
Even the harsh winters of Moscow can't cool my undying flames of love for you.
Even if you won't speak to me, even if you won't look at me or smile at me anymore.
I will hold on.
I promise to love you more each day than I did the day before.
I will trust you and respect you, laugh with you and cry with you, loving you faithfully through good times and bad, regardless of the obstacles we may face together.
I give you my hand, my heart, and my love, from this day forward for as long as eternity goes.
I love you princess, and I always will.
Before the creation of time, until the end of eternity.
one week before Valentine's and an everlasting sadness for me.
tonight, I reconfirm my love for you,
I won't ever give up on you.
I have vowed to be your knight and love you I will.
No matter how long it takes, or what you demand.
I will go through it all just for you.
Know that you are not just any other girl, because you are special to me.
I don't care how many other pretty girls are in this world.
You are the most beautiful one to me.
I will never avert my attention from you, even just for a while.
You're all that I want, all that I need.
I stay up thinking of you everynight, knowing that you won't pick up the phone.
Until the day you finally get married to another and form a covenant with him and watch as I slowly die.
I will love you.
Don't tell me you're too young, or we'll be too far apart.
Even the harsh winters of Moscow can't cool my undying flames of love for you.
Even if you won't speak to me, even if you won't look at me or smile at me anymore.
I will hold on.
I promise to love you more each day than I did the day before.
I will trust you and respect you, laugh with you and cry with you, loving you faithfully through good times and bad, regardless of the obstacles we may face together.
I give you my hand, my heart, and my love, from this day forward for as long as eternity goes.
I love you princess, and I always will.
Before the creation of time, until the end of eternity.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Turning Eighteen
In my final hours of being a minor, I am hit by my sudden realization that there's no turning back.
I'm puzzled, confused with my own feelings.
To most people, turning eighteen is a joyous occasion, a milestone in their lives.
But to me, I don't want to grow up just yet.
I want to grow tall, but I don't want to leave my life of pre-18.
I will miss my high school days, not the homework, nor the teachers, not even my friends, but at times when I could just glance over the building and look at her.
I am leaving my bittersweet life of a secondary school student.
I will be an adult now, brought into the harsh world of reality and I don't want to face without you.
For a long time now, I have been searching, for a girl.
Beautiful as a rose, graceful as a swan, tender as a dove, mysterious as the stars and fairer than the moon.
I finally found her, she is beyond what I could have dreamed of.
I wish to spend everyday of my life knowing more about her.
The word "perfect" exists only to describe her, for in my eyes, she is everything that I want, more than I asked for.
It was as though God inscribed the word "beauty" upon her.
But no matter how long or how loud the wolf howls, his cry will never reach the moon.
My dearest princess, whom I love so tenderly.
I'm sorry I could not meet your criteria.
Amongst your suitors, I'm not the tallest, the richest, the best looking, the most skillful in basketball nor am I the smartest.
I cannot promise that I will b able to make you the happiest woman on this planet, nor can I swear that life will be full of rainbows, a bed of roses.
But what I can give you, I swear it and promise you with my life that I will fulfill it.
That is, I will love you, through laughter and tears, through rain or shine, and in health of sickness, because I love you just the way you are princess.
I love you princess, you'll forever be my sweetheart, even if I'm your bitterheart.
I love everything about you.
How your face turns red everytime I'm doing something stupid just to get your attention.
How you can laugh, run and suddenly breakdown and start crying.
How you can tell me you're gonna put down the phone and end up talking for the next few hours.
How you always tease me and leave me head over heels about you.
I miss how your eyes sparkle, how your voice resonates and the way you look when you read a book.
It hurts that you chose to study over me, to focus on other things than to spare me a little of your time.
But I know this hurt, this pain and this wait is all worth it.
Because that's just the princess I loved the very first time I laid my eyes upon you.
I'll wait for you, leave my heart with you and come back a better man, a man who's worth your love.
Till then,
I love you Princess Annabeth.
I'm puzzled, confused with my own feelings.
To most people, turning eighteen is a joyous occasion, a milestone in their lives.
But to me, I don't want to grow up just yet.
I want to grow tall, but I don't want to leave my life of pre-18.
I will miss my high school days, not the homework, nor the teachers, not even my friends, but at times when I could just glance over the building and look at her.
I am leaving my bittersweet life of a secondary school student.
I will be an adult now, brought into the harsh world of reality and I don't want to face without you.
For a long time now, I have been searching, for a girl.
Beautiful as a rose, graceful as a swan, tender as a dove, mysterious as the stars and fairer than the moon.
I finally found her, she is beyond what I could have dreamed of.
I wish to spend everyday of my life knowing more about her.
The word "perfect" exists only to describe her, for in my eyes, she is everything that I want, more than I asked for.
It was as though God inscribed the word "beauty" upon her.
But no matter how long or how loud the wolf howls, his cry will never reach the moon.
My dearest princess, whom I love so tenderly.
I'm sorry I could not meet your criteria.
Amongst your suitors, I'm not the tallest, the richest, the best looking, the most skillful in basketball nor am I the smartest.
I cannot promise that I will b able to make you the happiest woman on this planet, nor can I swear that life will be full of rainbows, a bed of roses.
But what I can give you, I swear it and promise you with my life that I will fulfill it.
That is, I will love you, through laughter and tears, through rain or shine, and in health of sickness, because I love you just the way you are princess.
I love you princess, you'll forever be my sweetheart, even if I'm your bitterheart.
I love everything about you.
How your face turns red everytime I'm doing something stupid just to get your attention.
How you can laugh, run and suddenly breakdown and start crying.
How you can tell me you're gonna put down the phone and end up talking for the next few hours.
How you always tease me and leave me head over heels about you.
I miss how your eyes sparkle, how your voice resonates and the way you look when you read a book.
It hurts that you chose to study over me, to focus on other things than to spare me a little of your time.
But I know this hurt, this pain and this wait is all worth it.
Because that's just the princess I loved the very first time I laid my eyes upon you.
I'll wait for you, leave my heart with you and come back a better man, a man who's worth your love.
Till then,
I love you Princess Annabeth.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Chasing Shadows
The lone wolf continues to wait upon the fair moon who no longer speaks to him.
He calls out to her everynight.
Hoping, waiting and gets no reply.
Will she never speak to him again?
Does it take his death for her to miss him?
Does she ever miss listening to his voice?
He craves her like how a bee craves for honey.
Princess, if you're somewhere out there reading this message.
I wanna let you know that I don't regret loving you.
So don't tell me to forget you, cause I'll love you for the rest of my life.
He calls out to her everynight.
Hoping, waiting and gets no reply.
Will she never speak to him again?
Does it take his death for her to miss him?
Does she ever miss listening to his voice?
He craves her like how a bee craves for honey.
Princess, if you're somewhere out there reading this message.
I wanna let you know that I don't regret loving you.
So don't tell me to forget you, cause I'll love you for the rest of my life.
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